It's been over three month since I arrived and have been living the Kiwi lifestyle and I can honestly say it's been the best decision I've ever made throughout my whole life. I can finally say I am happy - and that is one gigantic step for me to admit as back home in UK I didn't really see me ever feeling this way for a very long time/ if ever again, due to me having a little friend always on my shoulders called depression. On a positive note though, I did get myself better and that makes me even happier knowing what I accomplished and overcome a serious mental illness. Everything about being here makes me want to be alive as it's so much more colourful and friendly. I personally feel like England is just one big dump that's slowly getting worse each day, maybe each minute. Luckily my determination got the better of me and for however many years I've wanted to escape it finally happened. You see, the small town were I'm originally from is full of people who claim they're getting out of the town as soon as they have a chance but nobody ever goes ahead with this. Quite sad really as there is literally nothing good about that place. I knew, obviously there would be cultural difference between here and home but again it made realization kick in and inform me how lazy and boring British people are; more specifically, again my hometown. This change in my life of seeing actual change in humanity has changed not only the way I view things but I now have a completely different outlook on life than what I originally started with.
I want to do more. See things. Experience as much as I can. I want to live.
Everybody is alive but not everybody is living. You only live once - very cliche but nonetheless its very bloody true and honestly who gives a fuck if you haven't got your life planned out the way you thought it would be by now. I've realised the whole life game isn't a race and you gotta experience everything for it all to fall into place. I mean I always thought I'd be on one straight path going to university, getting a degree, starting a job I love then I don't know maybe a family but to me that seems a lot more like a fairy-tale than reality. The whole thing use to scare the crap outta me thinking about it all but now it doesn't phase me in the slightest as I'm pretty sure, I'm not the only one who struggles deciding what to cook for dinner let alone what they want to do in the future. So anyway, what I'm trying to say without pulling off some witty little one liner quote is just start living for each day and let the days pass by without any thought of regret or anxiety. If shit happens on that day then so be it, shit does happen to everybody but look at the bad days as there is good on its way and eventually things will fall into place without you even realising they are even happening.
14th May 2014 is the day I also made one drastic change in my life again and that being cutting out meat from my food intake and turning vegetarian. I have grew up and around people who have ate meat my whole life and for all of nearly twenty years I've ate it without a care in the world until one day I decided to stop. After a few Peta2 YouTube videos of undercover footage of slaughter houses and a lot of tears later I was one big hot mess lying on my bed. I knew this all went on in the process but I felt completely oblivious to how bad it actually was. I've always been a big animal lover with my dream being as a child to become a vet purely so I could play with all the animals that I'd have to look after but as I grew older that then changed into a marine biologist; again still animal related. This decision I made was completely my own and I am so proud of myself for having the strength to commit fully to it. Although I am not yet full vegan as I figured that would be too difficult to jump straight into but I do plan on doing so in the future. I am also not against anyone who eats meat as I live with people who do and all my friends are meat eaters but it is my decision and not doing so makes me happy because of the reason I have stopped. People have also said to me that with me not eating the meat it doesn't mean the animals aren't still gonna get killed and yes, I am fully aware of that but it's the fact that I'm not being apart of it which makes me more proud and better about myself.
I do apologise that this is literally just a blog post of a lot of letters shoved in a few paragraphs but as I haven't posted since the first month I got to NZ I thought I'd like to just vent a little. I have been focusing a lot on socialising and fitness as I've started going the gym daily. Gotta get my summer figure ready for Christmas... Yes, I'm still adjusting to the opposite seasons. Although I've said this before, I am gona try to post more.
XOXO
I want to do more. See things. Experience as much as I can. I want to live.
Everybody is alive but not everybody is living. You only live once - very cliche but nonetheless its very bloody true and honestly who gives a fuck if you haven't got your life planned out the way you thought it would be by now. I've realised the whole life game isn't a race and you gotta experience everything for it all to fall into place. I mean I always thought I'd be on one straight path going to university, getting a degree, starting a job I love then I don't know maybe a family but to me that seems a lot more like a fairy-tale than reality. The whole thing use to scare the crap outta me thinking about it all but now it doesn't phase me in the slightest as I'm pretty sure, I'm not the only one who struggles deciding what to cook for dinner let alone what they want to do in the future. So anyway, what I'm trying to say without pulling off some witty little one liner quote is just start living for each day and let the days pass by without any thought of regret or anxiety. If shit happens on that day then so be it, shit does happen to everybody but look at the bad days as there is good on its way and eventually things will fall into place without you even realising they are even happening.
14th May 2014 is the day I also made one drastic change in my life again and that being cutting out meat from my food intake and turning vegetarian. I have grew up and around people who have ate meat my whole life and for all of nearly twenty years I've ate it without a care in the world until one day I decided to stop. After a few Peta2 YouTube videos of undercover footage of slaughter houses and a lot of tears later I was one big hot mess lying on my bed. I knew this all went on in the process but I felt completely oblivious to how bad it actually was. I've always been a big animal lover with my dream being as a child to become a vet purely so I could play with all the animals that I'd have to look after but as I grew older that then changed into a marine biologist; again still animal related. This decision I made was completely my own and I am so proud of myself for having the strength to commit fully to it. Although I am not yet full vegan as I figured that would be too difficult to jump straight into but I do plan on doing so in the future. I am also not against anyone who eats meat as I live with people who do and all my friends are meat eaters but it is my decision and not doing so makes me happy because of the reason I have stopped. People have also said to me that with me not eating the meat it doesn't mean the animals aren't still gonna get killed and yes, I am fully aware of that but it's the fact that I'm not being apart of it which makes me more proud and better about myself.
I do apologise that this is literally just a blog post of a lot of letters shoved in a few paragraphs but as I haven't posted since the first month I got to NZ I thought I'd like to just vent a little. I have been focusing a lot on socialising and fitness as I've started going the gym daily. Gotta get my summer figure ready for Christmas... Yes, I'm still adjusting to the opposite seasons. Although I've said this before, I am gona try to post more.
XOXO